just some thoughts

Just some thoughts while I try to stay awake for the last 3 hours of my night shift (yes I am 31 1/2 weeks pregnant and still working some night shifts, its just mean!)

*Colin is in the hospital, I miss him even though I see him everyday, I want him home, I want to snuggle in the love sac and watch tv together and fall asleep with him next to me again

*most wives don't have to even think about what sending their husband to the hospital every 9 -12 months for 2 weeks a pop is like, for them I am glad because its not fun

*the whole hospital thing is our families norm, isn't that crazy, just our norm

*my life is a balancing act with Colin in the hospital and I am doing a pretty good job holding it all together - taking care of Colin's needs, the dog's needs, the house's needs and of course my 31 week pregnant self and our baby girl's needs (like getting rest, eating nutritiously etc), meanwhile still have to work (boo)

*I am proud of myself for sleeping alone in my house, I used to sleep at my family's house while he was in the hospital because I was too scared to sleep in a house alone, it does help to have a dog though, gives me peace of mind

*my family is the most important thing in the world to me, all though its small, its my whole world

*I can be strong right now, but will need a breakdown and cry moment at some point, always need at least one while Colin is in the hospital and I think it makes me stronger to cry it out, a good cry does wonders for the soul, Colin is used to this by now, not phased

*crying is good - I don't understand people who try not to cry as if crying makes them weaker, NO NO NO crying makes you stronger because you're able to release, deal with it and move on

*our hearts are so amazing, they can grow so much and fit all the love and compassion in them you can fill. I love my husband more each day and am so grateful for the amazing person he is, I love our daughter already with all that I am, I love our dog ( i am serious, I feel like he is my child)

*so glad for a sister who came to Heber to hang out with me and go and watch New Moon with me and sleepover - love her!

*can't wait to have my bladder back to myself, no offense baby girl but it will be nice not to get woken in up in the night at least once just to go to the bathroom, can't remember what it was like to sleep through the night without needing to wake up to go to the bathroom

I think thats all for now, better get back to work...

Rexburg Trip

As many of you know my best friend Tari & I went to Ricks College/BYU-Id. The first year we were there it was still Ricks and the second year we were there it was BYU-I. We started college in 2000 (wow almost 10 years ago)! We had a blast and made a lot of awesome memories there that we still talk about to this day.
Now my little sister Kacy is thinking about going there in the fall. We thought it would be fun to take Kacy up there for a tour and reminisce on old times. So Kacy, Mindy, Tari & I went on a little road trip.
We left SLC on Friday, spent the night in Idaho Falls, toured Rexburg on Saturday morning (which didn't take long) and came home later that day. It was really fun! It brought back a lot of memories. My 2 years at Ricks was truly where I found myself. I discovered a love for learning and education, I grew in the gospel and going there helped lead me to serve a mission. I am so glad I went there and can't believe I am soooo old!

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Mike & Tracy's wedding

On Aug 29th, 2009 my brother Mike got married to the beautiful Tracy Robinson. We are so excited to have Tracy in our family, she is a sweetheart. The wedding was great. It was really fun to see aunts, uncles, cousins and hang out with the family.

Mike & Tracy during the ceremony
Tracy & her dad, love the hat!
Kacy & I with the handsome grromChris, my dad & Kacymy mom, Kacy & Noey (she was the cutest flower girl)
Noey & I
Chris, Lissy & Noey (Nick is MIA)
we thought Nick looked like the joker after drinking red punch
Kacy & I with our Aunt Jo Jo (one of my dad's sisters)
Will, Kacy & Noey
Love this one of Kacy & Colin

*these are some pictures I stole from Kacy's facebook, I don't have one of Jon on there but he looked very handsome in his tux like all my brothers

California

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Last week Colin and I went to the bay area to celebrate his grandma's 80th birthday. It was great to also visit where I grew up and eat at some of my favorite spots. We left a few days early before the festivities began so we could spend some time in Alamo/Danville and make a day trip to San Fran.

Tuesday - drove ALL day, too much sitting
Wednesday - tour of all the homes I grew up in, my church, my high school, ate lunch at the Basil Leaf Cafe in downtown Danville, window shopped at Broadway Plaza, got some frozen yogurt from Yogurt Park
Thursday - took BART into the city, went to CA Academy of Science in Golden Gate park for the morning and ate lunch there, the aquarium was amazing, my favorite were the glow in the dark fish, took cable car to Ghiradelli Square at a sundae then walked along Fisherman's wharf and got clam chowder in a bread bowl, we had a fun time, a lot of walking but worth it
Friday - hang out w/ Colin's immediate and extended family, took Colin the Brass Bear for lunch (yummmm), went to A's game in Oakland, the A's lost but it was fun to eat nachos and do the wave
Saturday - did a session in the Oakland temple with Colin's grandma, aunts/uncles, cousins, parents, went to Fenton's in Berkley for lunch (I got a black and tan Em), napped at the hotel, took family pictures, ate dinner, had movie night & birthday cake at grandma's where we watched films from when grandma was a little girl, that was neat
Sunday - drove all day, picked up Jonas from my dad's

We had a great time. Thanks to Beth & Bri for watching Jonas for 2 days and 1 night as well as to my dad. I need to say how awesome my dad was to watch Jonas for 4 days. My dad stayed with him at our house so Jonas could be in his usual environment which was really nice. We are so appreciative for our parents.

our 3rd anniversary

Colin & I celebrated our 3 year anniversary this weekend. I took Colin to the Zermatt Resort in Midway Saturday night. We forgot our camera at home so no pictures sadly. We brought games, swam, had a picnic dinner on the grass while watching Sound of Music which was really fun. On Sunday morning we slept in, took our sweet time getting ready and went to their Sunday brunch which left us both never wanting to look at food again because we ate so much. It was a great brunch, well worth it at least once.

I love my husband and am so grateful for him. He works so hard, perseveres through so much, is kind, compassionate, fun and perfect for me! I look forward to the adventures the next year brings, especially as we become parents.

What's round, sparkly, sliver, priceless, lost then found? My wedding ring. We are not supposed to wear our wedding rings to work so usually I just leave it at home. But the other night I forgot to do that and so when I got to work I placed them in my scrub pocket along with my car keys. I kept thinking I should get a safety pin and put my rings on it but never did.

As I left work I took my car keys out of my pocket while walking down the stairwell of the hospital to my car. My diamond ring came out with the car keys and fell on the stairs, I didn't notice. Infact I was 10 mintues from home (I live 45 minutes away and just got off a night shift) when I realized I only had my wedding band not the diamond. I turned around and speed back to the hospital so I could search for it. Meanwhile my gas tank was empty and I was so lucky my car didn't run out of gas on me. Praying like crazy I searched everywhere for my wedding ring 3, 4 and 5 times. Everyone on my unit was helping me search as well.

When it didn't show up I got a hold of Colin and started bawling " I am so sorry, I lost my wedding ring". He was really sweet about it. Colin had the foresight 3 years ago to get my ring insured but even though I could get another diamond it wasn't MY wedding ring, the wedding ring he gave me when he proposed and the one gave me the day we were sealed in the temple. It wasn't the same ring he paid for and picked out himself before he proposed. The ring I have been wearing these 3 years.

So as I was just getting in my car to head home my work called and said they think they found it. I ran up and sure enough there was my ring! A respiratory therapists saw it on the stairwell and brought it to my unit! I went and thanked her, would have given her a huge hug but since she was a stranger and all... I was so grateful for her honesty! Also so grateful for an answered prayer. My ring is back where it belongs, on my finger never to be thrown in my pocket again.