just some thoughts

Just some thoughts while I try to stay awake for the last 3 hours of my night shift (yes I am 31 1/2 weeks pregnant and still working some night shifts, its just mean!)

*Colin is in the hospital, I miss him even though I see him everyday, I want him home, I want to snuggle in the love sac and watch tv together and fall asleep with him next to me again

*most wives don't have to even think about what sending their husband to the hospital every 9 -12 months for 2 weeks a pop is like, for them I am glad because its not fun

*the whole hospital thing is our families norm, isn't that crazy, just our norm

*my life is a balancing act with Colin in the hospital and I am doing a pretty good job holding it all together - taking care of Colin's needs, the dog's needs, the house's needs and of course my 31 week pregnant self and our baby girl's needs (like getting rest, eating nutritiously etc), meanwhile still have to work (boo)

*I am proud of myself for sleeping alone in my house, I used to sleep at my family's house while he was in the hospital because I was too scared to sleep in a house alone, it does help to have a dog though, gives me peace of mind

*my family is the most important thing in the world to me, all though its small, its my whole world

*I can be strong right now, but will need a breakdown and cry moment at some point, always need at least one while Colin is in the hospital and I think it makes me stronger to cry it out, a good cry does wonders for the soul, Colin is used to this by now, not phased

*crying is good - I don't understand people who try not to cry as if crying makes them weaker, NO NO NO crying makes you stronger because you're able to release, deal with it and move on

*our hearts are so amazing, they can grow so much and fit all the love and compassion in them you can fill. I love my husband more each day and am so grateful for the amazing person he is, I love our daughter already with all that I am, I love our dog ( i am serious, I feel like he is my child)

*so glad for a sister who came to Heber to hang out with me and go and watch New Moon with me and sleepover - love her!

*can't wait to have my bladder back to myself, no offense baby girl but it will be nice not to get woken in up in the night at least once just to go to the bathroom, can't remember what it was like to sleep through the night without needing to wake up to go to the bathroom

I think thats all for now, better get back to work...

Rexburg Trip

As many of you know my best friend Tari & I went to Ricks College/BYU-Id. The first year we were there it was still Ricks and the second year we were there it was BYU-I. We started college in 2000 (wow almost 10 years ago)! We had a blast and made a lot of awesome memories there that we still talk about to this day.
Now my little sister Kacy is thinking about going there in the fall. We thought it would be fun to take Kacy up there for a tour and reminisce on old times. So Kacy, Mindy, Tari & I went on a little road trip.
We left SLC on Friday, spent the night in Idaho Falls, toured Rexburg on Saturday morning (which didn't take long) and came home later that day. It was really fun! It brought back a lot of memories. My 2 years at Ricks was truly where I found myself. I discovered a love for learning and education, I grew in the gospel and going there helped lead me to serve a mission. I am so glad I went there and can't believe I am soooo old!